day #4 "trust in god, then go and do"

Trusting in God is something that I feel that I needed to work on today. 

I always feel like I don't always lean on him in all the ways that I should. Trusting that he knows what is going on is really hard for me. I always try to figure everything out thinking I know what the Lord wants, except it may not always be the case. 

As I was pondering the idea of fully trusting in the Lord, I immediately thought of Peter. I can't imagine what it must have been like to be in that boat. On that stormy sea for hours, thinking that relief would never come one would easily lose trust in the Lord. But he came. He always comes. When he told Peter to walk to him on the sea, Peter lead with faith and then doubted his ability to walk on water. Which wouldn't we all? The moment he took his eyes off the Lord and let doubt overwhelm him, thats when he started to sink. 

Over the past 4 months, I have never related to Peter more in my life. I thought a lot about how I feel the same. I am in that boat of life, feeling like this storm is never ending. But I know that the Lord is there for me. He has come to me and asked me to walk on the water. I started to walk, but I have doubted. I feel like I am sinking and just trying to figure out how to get back on top of the water. This project has motivated me to turn back to the Lord to get back on top. 

Today I had a much better day that yesterday. At work, I got to be at the front with one of my co workers who is going through something hard in her life. Although, I could have complained about my life I only asked her about her life. 

Also I made cookies today. I love cookies. Making cookies really makes me the happiest. So that pretty much made my day 100% better. 

I read the talk "Trust in God, Then Go and Do" by Henry B. Eyring

The part that really stood out to me was:

"You show your trust in Him when you listen with the intent to learn and repent and then you go and do whatever He asks. If you trust God enough to listen for His message in every sermon, song, and prayer in this conference, you will find it. And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed with gratitude to find that He has come to trust you."